wow.i think i've finally grown up.what is a naive 16 year old to know about being grown up right?i know enough to accept myself completely and be independent.sure i still love danny--and i'm probably still in love with him--but right now i can live my life knowing that we probably aren't going to be together.i know it was probably only a month ago that i was all depressed about the future.i still kind of am but at least now i know how to deal.right now, tennis is the only thing in my life.sad to say but true.i feel like i've been alone for so long it just doesn't hurt anymore, it's just my way of life right now.i loved my life before when i was helplessly happy, but now i've found a new kind of bliss.even though i'm alone,i can find something to smile about.why would i miss being happy if i can just be happy?stilll, i find myself crying when i listen tosongs that bring me back to my evident happiness.i'm still getting used to this new complacent place of mine, but for now, it will have to do.it's kind of hard to describe it.it's a like a sweet and sour kind of thing.
ha.i came here to describe how happy i was and now i'm getting all sad.well before this, i had this amazing apiphany i've been longing to experience.i felt that i have acheived everything i ever wanted in my life.i found my true best friend, someone to complete me,confidence,and stability.four things and i've thought i've conquered the world.
i'm an independent person.
i don't need someone to make me happy.
i accept myself,especially my appearance.
i'm doing pretty well in school.
now quick, someone shoot me before i change my mind.
but somewhere along the way i lost myself...
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